At the end of the day, it's just you and your silly little life, so go on, enjoy it. Be the person you want to be.
It's totally okay to feel far away from others, as long as you're closer to yourself.
Sebelum menjadi sebaik-baik seorang ibu, belajarlah menjadi sebaik-baik seorang isteri. Sebelum menjadi sebaik-baik seorang isteri, belajarlah menjadi sebaik-baik seorang anak.
Eventually, you will be forgotten like you never existed. So, live to please your lord. He never forgets.