if i tell you that being alone is not terrifying then i would be lying
laying in the floor feeling hopeless and crying
telling to mama "hey! im good, so stop mortifying...
about this thing that is not for sure true, i'm not going to do anything i"ll regret to do"
and well, maybe im convincing myself saying "s'okay, I'll figure it out"
but those words are everytime more difficult to pull out of my mouth
and maybe im right, maybe everything its supposed to work out like that
but i deny it eveytime, praying to something bigger than me to take me out...
OF THIS MISERY, i just wanna crowl and, yk, do that
cause i dont know what to do by now
the world it's on fire and i have to stand out to survive, but i cant
the world is not in my hands, i cant control it
i cant save all those children, mothers and daughters
i can starve myself to death but that wont change a thing
do you know what i mean?
and im still a child, and i could not sell my things even if i want to
im selfish, not because i have to, but because i just am
im not proud
i feel ashamed with every word that comes out of my mouth, and IM SICK OF THIS!
sick of the same cycle and the same shadow and reflection on my mirror
i dont wanna look at it
just glancing at myself makes me wanna cry, but i cant because im so lucky to have this life...
and that's all i got
~🌻
laying in the floor feeling hopeless and crying
telling to mama "hey! im good, so stop mortifying...
about this thing that is not for sure true, i'm not going to do anything i"ll regret to do"
and well, maybe im convincing myself saying "s'okay, I'll figure it out"
but those words are everytime more difficult to pull out of my mouth
and maybe im right, maybe everything its supposed to work out like that
but i deny it eveytime, praying to something bigger than me to take me out...
OF THIS MISERY, i just wanna crowl and, yk, do that
cause i dont know what to do by now
the world it's on fire and i have to stand out to survive, but i cant
the world is not in my hands, i cant control it
i cant save all those children, mothers and daughters
i can starve myself to death but that wont change a thing
do you know what i mean?
and im still a child, and i could not sell my things even if i want to
im selfish, not because i have to, but because i just am
im not proud
i feel ashamed with every word that comes out of my mouth, and IM SICK OF THIS!
sick of the same cycle and the same shadow and reflection on my mirror
i dont wanna look at it
just glancing at myself makes me wanna cry, but i cant because im so lucky to have this life...
and that's all i got
~🌻
could you hold me tight at night?
my mind feels tired and the tears want to come out...
~🌻
my mind feels tired and the tears want to come out...
~🌻
i don't feel loved,
and you won't fix that for me, you don't have to
i feel too much love,
just go away, i don't deserve it
i don't feel seen,
i want you to look my way and think how good i am
i feel so seen,
i shouldn't have said that, i shouldn't have done that
i don't feel inspired,
although my room is clean and i don't have homework to do
i feel too inspired,
but my room seems more little and the teachers won't stop torturing me
i dont feel anything,
i just live because i'm breathing, but life seems so meaningless
i feel to much,
the pressure of being someone is too tight and i can't see myself having a future
...
and well, is not like we have a pretty one ahead of us.
~🌻
and you won't fix that for me, you don't have to
i feel too much love,
just go away, i don't deserve it
i don't feel seen,
i want you to look my way and think how good i am
i feel so seen,
i shouldn't have said that, i shouldn't have done that
i don't feel inspired,
although my room is clean and i don't have homework to do
i feel too inspired,
but my room seems more little and the teachers won't stop torturing me
i dont feel anything,
i just live because i'm breathing, but life seems so meaningless
i feel to much,
the pressure of being someone is too tight and i can't see myself having a future
...
and well, is not like we have a pretty one ahead of us.
~🌻
i just want a purpose, something to do with my life
i can't even decide if i wanna spread my voice or not
my life depends on this day, but is there a life to save?
do i really count in this fight?
i wanna think im part of something, something to be proud about
i wish for my mother, who is a part of that
so she can have a good life, the life she deserves and can be happy about
tonight i wish for her, and for me, and for us, and for anyone who has seen a lot of stuff
we are humans, we deserved better than this
and for all of you, who are seeing this, please take care and make a wish
you are strong, and all of us deserve freedom
good night, my loves
~🌻
i can't even decide if i wanna spread my voice or not
my life depends on this day, but is there a life to save?
do i really count in this fight?
i wanna think im part of something, something to be proud about
i wish for my mother, who is a part of that
so she can have a good life, the life she deserves and can be happy about
tonight i wish for her, and for me, and for us, and for anyone who has seen a lot of stuff
we are humans, we deserved better than this
and for all of you, who are seeing this, please take care and make a wish
you are strong, and all of us deserve freedom
good night, my loves
~🌻
"everything happens for a reason"
well then, what was the reason?
seriously, WHAT WAS THE REASON?
all this people are suffering, they are being tortured and murdered, lots of them are "missing", lots of them are now just trying to survive!!
so what's the reason? for all this suffering, WHAT'S THE REASON?
WHAT'S THE FUCKING REASON? THERE'S NONE, NO FUCKING REASON
CHILDREN ARE DYING
MOTHERS ARE DYING
BROTHERS ARE DYING
SISTERS ARE DYING
PEOPLE ARE DYING
PEOPLE ARE DYING!!!!!!
...but hey, everything happens for a reason, right?
~🌻
well then, what was the reason?
seriously, WHAT WAS THE REASON?
all this people are suffering, they are being tortured and murdered, lots of them are "missing", lots of them are now just trying to survive!!
so what's the reason? for all this suffering, WHAT'S THE REASON?
WHAT'S THE FUCKING REASON? THERE'S NONE, NO FUCKING REASON
CHILDREN ARE DYING
MOTHERS ARE DYING
BROTHERS ARE DYING
SISTERS ARE DYING
PEOPLE ARE DYING
PEOPLE ARE DYING!!!!!!
...but hey, everything happens for a reason, right?
~🌻
i dont feel good, but at least i can breathe now
maybe that's the price of being alive rn
i dont wanna think of all the dying happening, i wanna be ignorant (like i always am), but it gets harder and harder....
and of course i can be ignorant, it's just that it doesn't work anymore
i can't stop thinking about it, i feel traped in my own thoughts, and i wanna reach out to them and help, but want can a stupid and penniless girl do anyways??
~🌻
maybe that's the price of being alive rn
i dont wanna think of all the dying happening, i wanna be ignorant (like i always am), but it gets harder and harder....
and of course i can be ignorant, it's just that it doesn't work anymore
i can't stop thinking about it, i feel traped in my own thoughts, and i wanna reach out to them and help, but want can a stupid and penniless girl do anyways??
~🌻
existir es raro.
pensar que existo es raro en general.
me refiero a que, basándome en mi definición de la existencia, siendo esta: "Que hayan personas que estén al tanto de tu presencia en este mundo", yo existo para la gente.
ellos me reconocen como alguien que existe, y por alguna razón eso es muy raro para mí.
a veces desearía desaparecer y ver la reacción de las personas.
¿estarían preocupados o aliviados?
¿querrían volver a verme u olvidarme?
supongo que nunca tendré respuestas a esta pregunta, ya que no tengo suficiente dinero para desaparecer de un día para otro sin que nadie sospeche.
supongo que la existencia últimamente se volvió algo raro para mí porque dudé si quería existir en lo absoluto...
eso nunca deja de sonar triste.
maybe if i stop thinking about it, it will go away eventually.
~🌻
pensar que existo es raro en general.
me refiero a que, basándome en mi definición de la existencia, siendo esta: "Que hayan personas que estén al tanto de tu presencia en este mundo", yo existo para la gente.
ellos me reconocen como alguien que existe, y por alguna razón eso es muy raro para mí.
a veces desearía desaparecer y ver la reacción de las personas.
¿estarían preocupados o aliviados?
¿querrían volver a verme u olvidarme?
supongo que nunca tendré respuestas a esta pregunta, ya que no tengo suficiente dinero para desaparecer de un día para otro sin que nadie sospeche.
supongo que la existencia últimamente se volvió algo raro para mí porque dudé si quería existir en lo absoluto...
eso nunca deja de sonar triste.
maybe if i stop thinking about it, it will go away eventually.
~🌻
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ESTOY CANSADA DE SER UNA HOPELESS ROMANTIC Y NO TENER ROMANCES EN LO ABSOLUTO😭😭😭😭😭
i know i don't have to come back there, and that's a relief, but i also don't wanna leave from here...
i can't handle change.
~🌻
i can't handle change.
~🌻
mi mamá dice que no tengo motivación,
lo peor es que tiene razón
a este punto necesito una señal divina,
porque yo sola no podría...
...encontrar una nueva razón para vivir,
ser feliz y vivir mejor
en cambio, solo quedo yo.
~🌻
lo peor es que tiene razón
a este punto necesito una señal divina,
porque yo sola no podría...
...encontrar una nueva razón para vivir,
ser feliz y vivir mejor
en cambio, solo quedo yo.
~🌻