it's easy to look back and question decisions you have made in the past, but it's unfair to punish yourself for them. you can't blame yourself for not knowing back then what you know now, and the truth is you made each decision for a reason based on how you were feeling at that time. as we grow up, we learn and we evolve. maybe the person you are now would have done things differently back then, or maybe you are the person you are now because of the decisions you made back then.

just trust your journey; it's all going to make sense soon. ✨💗

sometimes its just you and your emotions !!

I hope you find someone who will understand your past traumas and give you constant reassurance that you're now trusting the right person. I hope you find someone who understand that you are not perfect but will never make you feel not enough.

I hope you find a kind-hearted person who hates hurting your heart. Someone who will speak kind words to you and will always respect you no matter what the situation is. Someone gentle, warm and kind. I hope you find someone who knows exactly how to treat you right.
Someone who makes you his priority, not an option. Someone who has his eyes only on you, not on other women. Someone who refuses to entertain any woman that isn't you. Someone who will love you genuinely and will care for you like he's afraid to lose you.
I hope you find someone who can love you selflessly because not every one can love that way. Not every one is willing to sacrifice everything he has just to see you happy and not every one is willing to love you with everything he has. I hope you find a love that allows you to be happy and to be at peace because you deserve it after how many times of settling for less than what you deserve.

I hope you find someone who will see the magic that is YOU. Someone who will see the beauty of your heart, not the face. And most importantly, I hope you find someone who will never give up on you and will never treat you poorly. Because in this world where cheating seems like a daily trend, real connection is hard to find.

"When life breaks you, it is because you are ready to be put back together differently. Every piece of you that feels shattered is a piece that will find a new place, a new purpose, a new meaning. Trust that the cracks are where the light gets in. And sometimes, in our brokenness, we find our greatest wholeness. We find the courage to rebuild, to reimagine, to redefine what it means to be strong. You are not broken; you are breaking through."

— Unknown

It has been hard for me lately...
and I don't even know if I deserve to be here.
I'm tired ....
I'm exhausted.....
...and it's hard to keep up with life.
It's hard faking everything.
It's hard trying to say that it's fine when it's really not...😔😔💔💔

“It's a different kind of pain when your heart cries but your eyes don't.”

"Sometimes, no matter how nice you are, how kind you are, how caring you are, how loving you are, it just isn't enough for some people."

growing up‚ i never truly felt like i belonged anywhere. whenever someone came into my life‚ my first thought was always that they’d leave me eventually. i went through a phase where i’d distance myself from the people i loved the most because their love‚ though deep‚ felt suffocating. i felt as though i was drowning in it‚ and when i’d finally gasp for air‚ i feared no one would still be there.

deep down‚ i wanted to hold onto them forever‚ but my mind was consumed by the fear that they’d abandon me. i was scared — terrified‚ even:

terrified of being left behind.
terrified of being abandoned.
and so‚ i left first —
before they could leave me.

— e.s

"I don't know if I'm getting better or if I'm just getting used to this pain."

To my old self,

I'm sorry for allowing people to hurt you so many times. I'm sorry for all the wrong decisions that you've made because you were not wise enough before. I hope you'll learn to forgive yourself someday. I hope you'll heal from all your trauma. And I hope you've learned from all the mistakes that you've made in your past.

Someday, I hope you'll learn to love yourself after all the heartbreaks that you've been through. I know sometimes it's hard to forget the painful things that happened to you, but it takes time to heal. I hope one day you'll learn to find your worth again. You were too hard on yourself and you forgot that you are worth it too. One day, I hope you find the happiness that you always deserve.

I want you to know that your past mistakes and traumas doesn't define who you are. You are more than your wounds and scars. You are more than the number of your heartbreaks. And I hope you always remember that I am so proud of you for being brave enough to stay alive. You are loved, and you are always enough. ♥️

-When you search for a true friend or a lover, search for the people who cannot bear the idea of losing you. Yeah, people change, hearts change, and circumstances can be stronger than us. However, look for the ones who want to fix the broken pieces, look for the ones who would rather step over their ego but never lose you, look for the ones who do a lot of effort just to see your smile. Don’t put yourself in place where you’re begging for someone love and care, whoever cares about you, will show it. Look for the ones even in bad terms they never speak bad about you, the ones who’re real and keepers, the ones who put themselves as a priority but will never make you feel like you’re a burden. The ones who listen all the time even if it’s the same problem, the ones who show care even within a small argument. Look for the ones who will talk and try to communicate rather than ignoring you. The love someone has for us is shown through their actions, always remember this.

I use to be afraid of losing people until I realized most of them were never really down for me anyways. Even though my loyalty and love for them ran deep, they could care less.
So instead of being afraid of losing them, I fell back and watched them loose me.

Remember: Losing them might hurt. But losing yourself will hurt more. Let them go. Because you deserve better, and you can't lose who you are for someore who isn't meant for you. 🖤

Princess treatment doesn't mean he buys you expensive gifts all the time. It means he doesn't let you go to sleep upset, he knows how to calm your nerves, he's patient, and his words match his actions.

I am strong, but I am tired..
Tired of always having to be the strong one.
Tired of always having to do the right thing.🙂

"Isn't it sad?"

"What?"

"...that she made sure everyone around her is okay but no one even asked her how she's doing."

I'm still learning to say goodbye to the people who hurt me even if they give millions of excuses.
I'm still learning to leave the most things I love if they're causing pain.
I'm still learning to stop giving too many excuses for people who wouldn't.

I'm still learning to love myself enough to stop anyone that would make me suffer.

it cut me deep, but the apology didn’t even heal the surface of my wound.

just sometimes i’d wish that sorry can act as a band aid for every wound the people have caused. hoping that hearing them say it can magically remove the sting in my skin.

but it don’t.

even with countless apologies, it didn’t manage to lessen the pain. it didn’t even stop the bleeding. it was just a sound—plain, unsincere.

how painful to accept the fact that even if they apologize, the wound will remain as it is.

how was everything lately?

was it too heavy or you’re just good at carrying it well?
but here’s a cheer to the ones who have to hide everything under their sheets. to the ones who keep on putting up a bright smile on their face despite how heavy it weighs. cheers to you—you’re brave, you’re inspiring, you’re bold and you’re human—be human. be weak at times, be fragile —things will eventually be lighter one day. sit with all your roundabout emotions and still, get back up.

—jaeka