To my old self,

I'm sorry for allowing people to hurt you so many times. I'm sorry for all the wrong decisions that you've made because you were not wise enough before. I hope you'll learn to forgive yourself someday. I hope you'll heal from all your trauma. And I hope you've learned from all the mistakes that you've made in your past.

Someday, I hope you'll learn to love yourself after all the heartbreaks that you've been through. I know sometimes it's hard to forget the painful things that happened to you, but it takes time to heal. I hope one day you'll learn to find your worth again. You were too hard on yourself and you forgot that you are worth it too. One day, I hope you find the happiness that you always deserve.

I want you to know that your past mistakes and traumas doesn't define who you are. You are more than your wounds and scars. You are more than the number of your heartbreaks. And I hope you always remember that I am so proud of you for being brave enough to stay alive. You are loved, and you are always enough.

— Shiori X

"Don't touch my tiredness, your hands are no longer trusted."

Dearest soul,

I hope you won't exhaust you by explaining yourself to others all the time. Sometimes we just need to leave things by how people see them, because we don't have control over what they think of us. They don't have any slightest idea of our struggles.

I hope that even when I don't remind, you would remember that I'm here, for us, fighting with you through my du'ās. I hope that you wouldn't forget that you are not alone. I hope that even when the world can't understand you, I am here, ready to understand you even when you are yet to narrate your story.

Know that my arms are open for you. My words are ready to console you. My fingers are ready to wipe your tears. I'd embrace your chaos. I'd overlook your flaws. To me, you're a beautiful soul, and you cannot change my mind.

— Veiled Poet

“I cannot make you understand. I cannot make anyone understand what is happening inside me. I cannot even explain it to myself.”

~Franz Kafka, The Metamorphosis

Yes strong people need to be reminded they're loved.
The ones that laugh all the time can be the ones crying themselves to sleep.
The ones that always throw good comments to make people around them feel good. They sometimes need to hear them about themselves too.
The people who show up in the hardest moments need to have people around them in those moments too.

You never know what a positive person may pass through to appear like that.
So be kind.

Allāh ﷻ knows your soul is tired. He knows you find it hard to accept what's going on. He knows you've been asking him and praying hard. He knows you're confused and in need of comfort but he also knows what's best for you. He will always take you in that direction. Trust him.

You don't always have to understand me everyday or read every intricate detail in my words and actions.

There are just some days that I am meant to be messy. chaotic. And complicated that even myself couldn't hold.

The most important thing for me is to make it through the day. And call it a day of surviving 🥀

—Jaeka

You Are Valuable ⭐

You will never know how Valuable you are until you meet a person who show you how much he loves you.

You are Valuable.
Please remember that!

Be patient.
For he shall be here. One day.

Be hopeful.
For he will bring you a new hope. One day.

Be happy.
For he will confess to you.
One day.

Believe and a wish shall come true. One day.
Yeah. One day.
⭐

-Dara Ly

Never force a relationship.

Sometimes it's better to move on, than to hold on to a person who doesn't understand who you truly are. Unfortunately there will be times where your absence will teach you what your presence cannot.

You need to stop breaking your own heart in trying to make a relationship work that clearly isn't meant to work to begin with.

You can't force someone to genuinely care about you.

You can't force someone to be faithful to you.

You can't force someone to be the person you need
them to be.

The truth is, sometimes the person you want the most is the same person you would be best without.

You have got to understand some things are meant to come into your life, just not meant to stay.

Everything that you do to show love, you have to be
careful, not to lose yourself by trying to fix what should never been there in the first place. You can't get the relationship you need from someone who's not ready to reciprocate the love you give to them.

I know it's hard when you meet someone and your heart feels, that's the person you could spend an eternity with, and you start to accept that they are not that person you thought they needed to be.

And no matter how many times you cry yourself to sleep at night, you will eventually heal from your previous relationship and find the one you have always longed for. Your future will now bring an understanding of why things didn't work out in your previous relationships.

One thing I have learned throughout the years, is “It is better to be single than to be in a relationship settling for less.”

If they see you as an option, then they don't deserve to be a priority in your life.

Take my advice and never chase someone who's not chasing you.

~ Cody Bret

Don’t hope too much because that “too much” can hurt you so much.

i'm glad that you're brave enough to be here today. always. i'm proud of you; even on times where you can't find yourself between the lines. i'll be proud of you even when you're struggling to open your eyes and heart to the world. i'll be proud of you on days when you feel like healing is a big step for your wounded soul.

i'll stay. i'll stay on days when you feel like you're no longer growing. i'll be there applauding on you for making it out of your bed after not getting up for days because you're busy battling your own demons.

i'll be there. i'll sit with you. i'll congratulate your wins and loses. i'll lend you my hand. i'll tell you that it's okay to be this and that sometimes when you feel like the world is too much everytime.

i'll listen to you, wait for you, hug you. i'll be patient enough for you; because i know what it feels like to force yourself to live in a moment you know you left outside of your front door long ago.

i'll be there, knocking. and i'll tell you that i'm glad. i'm glad that you're still alive.

i'm glad that you chose to exist, even though deleting yourself from this world is way more easier.

I'm not sad, I'm just exhausted.

I'm too much of everything and that's the only problem.
When I love someone, it really gets to every inch of me.
And when I'm sad, I remember almost everything that did hurt me. Like it was yesterday.
And when I'm happy, I forget about all the horrible things I passed through.

I'm a person who feels everything deep to their bones.
That's why I'm always feeling tired.

Her.

If you have a friend who is depressed.
Please don't leave them.
They need you.

I know it's hard for you.
It’s hard to be a friend to someone who’s depressed.
But it is one of the kindest. Noblest. And best things you will ever do.

Dear myself,

I hope you will always remember that it's okay to take a pause, to breathe, to give yourself a break whenever the world is too overwhelming. Sometimes, things can be so hard but please always remember that you can take one day at a time. No one is rushing you but yourself. So, I want you to thank yourself for making it this far. You can be so messed up and full of chaotic thoughts, but I will always try to love you as you are. Thankyou for being you.

I can be the kindest person you'll ever meet, but I can also be the most heartless person when you hurt me and the people I love. I always try my best to be patient and understanding. As much as I can, I want to tell myself that a person's wrong behavior has a valid reason. I always try to endure all the pain and keep all my feelings to myself. But I am not a perfect person. Most especially, I am not a robot. I can feel the pain when people hurt me. I get disappointed when the people I love betray me. I get sad when I am disrespected and treated poorly. I get hurt a thousand times and still accept it with all my heart. But after that pain, sadness, and hatred, don't expect me to be the same again. I will never be the same after being hurt constantly and brutally.

— Shiori X

Sometimes you will lose interest in things you used to enjoy, not because you don't want them anymore, but because your soul craves silence and inner peace. It's sometimes better to lie down on your bed and listen to your favorite music or watch your favorite movie alone, away from your phone and all the notifications that bother you from time to time.
It's sometimes better to devote your time alone and reflect on what you want to do, why you keep tolerating stagnant routines, and why you keep staying in places where you don't belong.
Sometimes you have to pay attention to your body and mind when it tells you to take a break from the outside world, take care of yourself, and rest until you feel like yourself again. The world does not revolve around your smile, your love for someone, or your excitement; rather, the process includes silence, sadness, and solitude.

Take a deep breath and remind yourself that you can comprehend all of this without worrying about what others will think because this is your life and there are no justifications for putting yourself first.

— Balt

She changed
Yes
She changed because she did her best for those who did her the dirtiest
She loved those ugliest parts in people which they were hiding but she was left alone even when she was giving her best shots
She changed because no one tried to learn her love language and she was too exhausted translating it
She changed because she couldn't afford anymore wounds on her soul.
She changed because she had dreams too
She changed because she needed love too
She changed because she decided to love herself
She changed because she needed to live too
She changed simply because she was tired and she couldn't find home and comfort in anyone.