Mnogoslov

В октябре я купила огромную и толстенную книгу Рупи Каур, современной поэтессы. Но это не совсем книга, это учебник по упражнениям на письмо. Книга ждет меня в Индонезии. А я с ее помощью написала пару текстов.

1. You never wanted to see me anxious or nervous,
Tired or uncertain.
I never got the only thing I needed —
Acknowledgment of all my sides.

2. Manifesto of fearlessness
Doing something which you have zero interest in always feels like someone’s poking you with a fork. Unrelenting, endless and painful. You know that feeling, right? Even a hundred luxurious job offers couldn’t give you a sense of meaning. Sure, you might convince yourself, for a while, that’s what you really crave.

But while you’re busy doing something you hate, you won’t even notice how life slips away from you, like water through your fingers. And one day, out of the blue, you’ll open your eyes and realise there’s not much left. The clock is about to stop. You’ll come to an end.

Understanding can come too late. You might be sitting on the subway, one gloomy morning that perfectly suits your moody self-reflection. Your mind busy with anxious thoughts, tasks, the endless to-do list. Pick up the laundry, write the report. Book the cleaner, call the dentist. Then suddenly, a bright and shocking thought will hit you, like a storm cloud looming in your mind.

It will be this:
«I was a gem. I used to feel like hidden gem. I don’t feel like that anymore.
Between laundry and housework,
Between work meetings and other errands,
Between reports and presentations
Shopping malls and never-ending task lists,
I don’t feel like there’s anything precious inside me,
Like a gem or a treasure.
I don’t have enough hope to believe that anymore.
I feel like there’s nothing.
And honestly
I don’t feel anything anymore»

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В октябре я купила огромную и толстенную книгу Рупи Каур, современной поэтессы. Но это не совсем книга, это учебник по упражнениям на письмо. Книга ждет меня в Индонезии. А я с ее помощью написала пару текстов.

1. You never wanted to see me anxious or nervous,
Tired or uncertain.
I never got the only thing I needed —
Acknowledgment of all my sides.

2. Manifesto of fearlessness
Doing something which you have zero interest in always feels like someone’s poking you with a fork. Unrelenting, endless and painful. You know that feeling, right? Even a hundred luxurious job offers couldn’t give you a sense of meaning. Sure, you might convince yourself, for a while, that’s what you really crave.

But while you’re busy doing something you hate, you won’t even notice how life slips away from you, like water through your fingers. And one day, out of the blue, you’ll open your eyes and realise there’s not much left. The clock is about to stop. You’ll come to an end.

Understanding can come too late. You might be sitting on the subway, one gloomy morning that perfectly suits your moody self-reflection. Your mind busy with anxious thoughts, tasks, the endless to-do list. Pick up the laundry, write the report. Book the cleaner, call the dentist. Then suddenly, a bright and shocking thought will hit you, like a storm cloud looming in your mind.

It will be this:
«I was a gem. I used to feel like hidden gem. I don’t feel like that anymore.
Between laundry and housework,
Between work meetings and other errands,
Between reports and presentations
Shopping malls and never-ending task lists,
I don’t feel like there’s anything precious inside me,
Like a gem or a treasure.
I don’t have enough hope to believe that anymore.
I feel like there’s nothing.
And honestly
I don’t feel anything anymore»

BY Mnogoslov